i am also the oldest male and my younger brother didnt see half as much of the violence that i did. it seemed to me that my father realized that he really screwed up with me and tried to ignore me after my little brother was born aside from when he found falt in me but now because the police and the counselors and everyone else has covered it up from my little brother he wants to see him and i really just feel like telling him the truth and i have but he wont lissen he just thinks hes the best person in the world and i think he needs to realize that he isnt
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S G
I was looking for some information for my art project and i stumbled onto this sight from yahoo. My art project is all about converting an old tatered book into a new work of art and my theme for my book was my greatest fears. i am 15 years old and my greatest fear is to turn into my father. i remember all of the physical abuse and threats he gave my mother my brother and i and i really could not live with myself if i grew up and abused my children like he did. throwing my children into walls head first, picking my 7 year old son up by his throte and slaming him into the wall while i look up into his eyes and threaten his life for something so insegnificant, and chaseing my wife around the house with a kitchen knife for sticking up for them isnt something i want to grow up to do. i want to be the cool parent were my children can come to me to ask me anything and to tell me anything ( like my mom) who has faught tooth and nail to keep me and my bro happy. i dont want to make my children fear me or curse my name as i do to my father and i dont want my wife and children to have to call the police on me every other day for about 3 years and have to hide away inside because of the fear of if my family does come out ill say i will kill them over and over. i dont want the hole entire police department to fear me(the place i used to work) so that when my family does try to get help from me they wont come unless there 3-4 units of police cars are coming up at once. my friends souldnt have to shut me out of there lives and abandon me so i can be alone forever. i have not seen him in about 5 years and as of right now i dont think i ever will again i just dont want to and i dont think i need to(i also dont want this for my children) i want them to look up to me and i want the ''you go girl fealing'' or the ''you go boy fealing''. i have read the entire post and i can relate to alot of the things you pulled up lady lee and i thank you for showing these things to me and everyone else. i used to think that i was the only one that it was happening to so it was fine i just had to deal with it. and i thought it was my falt for the beatings i thought if i was good he wouldnt hurt me or my mom or brother but nomatter what i did he always found falt he always found a way to hit me and he always seemed to like it. so for you question Do abused children tend to be abusive adults?? i just dont know, but i can promise you one thing i will not.